MJ's Journal

I was tagged by  sairaber

Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself.
People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts
as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names.

Heres mine ...

(1) I can't start driving unless I have picked a song on the cd player - unless I'm rushing about

(2) I don't like using random fuctions - I have to manually mix up my playlist

(3) If I'm alone in a house or flat I have to check the backdoor three times before I go to bed

(4) I have to shower in a certain order - well unless someone else is in with me

(5) If I'm tired I don't go to bed I stay up later

(6) When I sing in my head I often start to dance - people must think i am sooo very random

(7) I can not stand still!

(8) I can not use a jar of pre-made cooking sauces unless I add my own herbs and stuff

(9) To cheer myself up I jump up and down

(10) If I need to remember something I create a rythme

My tags: cloob, frogboyflips, magic_elf, piink_lemonade, darth_h, and skuddybaby

I have truely 100% turned into a facebook whore!  Is that good or bad?  Well it is definatley helping with distractions from revision hehe :-).

Anyway life upto now = pretending to revise, sorting a filing cabnate out and generally being high on caffine (soooo much fun) at reload.

Been a bit down too well up and down really - Sair has really helped though we talked for ages last night and it finally got me back on track - thank you!!!  Sorry I kepted you up late!

This week is one exam, a defense, work, and generally getting ready for terms start!  Oh and Saturday = reload again = more alkeyhol / caffine and a jolly good dancy insane time.  Not forgetting nights out for finishing exams, etc .. etc ...

Anyway enough of my prattling one - love you all!

Mat
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So what have I been upto ... well came back to Aber on the 3rd and spent both the Tuesday and Wednesday evenings with Sarah and Paul in Harleys / Varsity / Spoons / Mine where ever the mood too us ... then on Friday morning it was time for a long drive to Cardiff!

So picked Dewi up from his and went into Cardiff shopping, managed to get my hair done, buy some stuff from Boots, but couldn't find anything in Next to get with my gift card so we gave in.  We then headed back to Dewi's where he made me a curry and spent some time with his family - they are excellent and really good fun to be around! 

We missed the vodka out this time and had Asti, a bottle of Red and a bottle of Rose and then headed into Cardiff via train.  We then went out with Dewis friends before heading off to Icon, Exit finished by X - we got very drunk and the two cocktails in Icon was a bad idea - but it was my "20th" (yes I know plus 4 :-p) Birthday! 

Saturday morning was wake up from hell, shower and shop round Cardiff for a bit.  Went back to Dewi's to pick up car, wait for hangover to go, then drive us both back to aber.

Back in Aber now and missing Cardiff, but people are back now :-D so all is good. 

For those that couldn't come to Cardiff and want to go out with me this week instead for Birthday I will be heading to Reload on Wednesday so come say hi and get drunk!

*Edit*
There are a few pics from Birthday on Facebook!

For those of you that know me I'm not the stereotypical gay man when it comes to keeping my room tidy so I thought it was about time that I changed it - so after 4 hours of sorting, cleaning and tidying I now have a room which is lovingly looked after...

... for those that don't believe me *cough* dewidrama ...





Now keeping it clean has to be one of my New Year Challenges ... which I now have finally decided on ...

(1) Not smoke as much / quit
(2) Keep room tidy
(3) Have a few hours of just me time so I don't burn out again

So bar the mass clean not much else to report except saying ...

Have a wonderful, fantastic, HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone

x

... erm not much!

I Aber now till New Years Day, then back home, then Cardiff for Birthday!

Need to fit work in as well eeks oh well!

So yer not much to report, Christmas was good, didn't get everything I wanted, but I doubt Santa could of got a cute guy in a parcel for me hehe. 

Spent most of the time in the family traditional way with a glass of red wine or sherry from way too early in the morning now its time to let the body un-pickle though according to mums scales I've lost weight rather than put it back on ... mmm maybe mine are more accurate.

Spent four hours last night talking to someone online, turns out he went to the high school I helped develop a Learning Resource Centre and Library admin system with before I came to uni ...  he was telling me about all the changes since I last visited.

He said I looked attractive and not nearly 24 more like 20 which made me smile so much - though a bit scary because I remember him as a little first year in high school ...  he is in Sixth Form now and all grown up - I should visit them more often so much time has passed and I've hardly noticed it.

Still got mums big party to plan - and really must get started on this LGBT Showcase I have planned, and my uni work, that has been really neglected.

I wonder what 2007 will hold for me not long left before it starts now and within 5 days I will reach 24 - not really scared about it at all this year, its a number and a time to party, not to worry about the size or the wrinkles ;-), I still feel 20 at heart and as they say your only as old as you feel - or how my mum said it "only as old as the man you manage to pull" (she was a bit drunk at the time I think). 

Its also time to pick a new years resolutions - though I think they are over rated and everyone messes them up within a week so instead this year I'm going to set challanges that I can try to achieve, they might not happen straight away but by the end of the year hopefully they will - now I just need to pick some!

I hope you all had a fab Christmas and if I don't see you before - have a really good, drunken, fun, exciting, New Years Eve ... loves ya all!

" So here it is a merry Christmas
Everybody's having fun
Look to the future now
It's only just begun "

Have a good one !!

Merrrrrrryyyy  Chhhrrriisssttttmasssssss!

So I reach the grand old age of 24 on the 5th Jan, if anyone is interested I'm going to spend it in Cardiff this year, so if anyone fancys going out leave a message or give me a text.

Love ya all

Mat
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So this morning I got up at 7am - and dragged my sister out of bed and headed up to Manchester.

Typical man I had not done my Christmas shopping and it seemed a fabulous idea to hit Manchester the day before Christmas Eve, and you know what, it was!  Today was the first time I enjoyed shopping!  It wasn't too busy, but wasn't empty either, I got everything I set out to get too - including a georgous top for my mum, and all her birthday presents - for her "xx th" (I've been banned from releasing the age!) birthday.

My sister loved wandering down Canal Street and found it very amusing that there was a pub called Queer - mmmm I don't think she gets out much.

Bar that been texting people to cheer myself up - I can't wait to be back in Aber ... anyone there for New Years Eve?

Loves ya all

If you use facebook add me ;-)

Ok I love seeing mum, and I love being loud with my sister ... but please ... get me out of here!!!!!!!

I miss my friends!  Least at uni when you want a break there is the pub - I need the pub - though red wine - lots of it might keep me going.  I think I need to get loads of red wine tomorrow ... more about tomorrow later.

Well the journey was good it started out leaving Aber with the sun setting and take that playing - "Never Forget" - I think that was really good song to leave on ...

"Never forget where you've come here from" is I think the line that made me think the most.  Its so true - I'm now 23 (24 in a couple of weeks time) and I have come a long way , from the shy, scared first year, to happy, out, mat - I'm proud of who I am!

Driving was boring - I can't even remember half of it, I spent more time thinking about things ... it is amazing that with driving you can just go into autopilot and only come out when you need to.

Got back to Congleton with Affirmation playing and again it seems to have got me thinking ... maybe I'm thinking too much ... mmmm yeah well, had wine now so this post probably, makes no sense oh well!!

Tomorrow I'm dragging my sister to Manchester - yes I know I'm crazy - but it is the only time I can get there to sort my mums birthday present.  So if you see us stressed, and crazzy drag me for a coffee I will need it!!

Love you all!!

Mat
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Ok I'm offically bored now ... !

Home as soon as I'm packed me thinks!

Mat
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I wouldn't say I'm not looking forward to going home, I can't wait to spend time with my mum, sister and nan again, they have done so much for me and supported me so hard lately.  I'm going to miss aber though ... there is no-one really left now but still being here makes it all seem the same.

I'm missing my mates I think, annoying Dewi, or teasing Sarah in the RAG Office, and there are things I want to try and see what might come of them and waiting until the New Year seems boring!  The lines from the Dawson Creeks song ... " I don't want to wait for our lives to be over,
I want to know right now what will it be" seem to jump to mind ... I'm being a bit impatient me thinks.

I'd love to do a Christmas where I see my family but it is filled with time with friends too, having the "home" is family life and the "uni home" is friend life is getting a bit annoying that it is split that way now ... maybe when I'm earning I can afford a nice place and invite my family for Christmas meal and have friends around afterwards ... we'll see ...

Not much in other news I'm happy, playful and teasy again, and I intend for 2007 to be a really good year...

Anyway back to be lazy and watching DVDs.

Hello one and all,

I just thought I'd let you know that I'm not sending Christmas cards this year ... not because I don't like Christmas or writing them, or because I don't like you etc ...

enchochada told me about the Oxfam Gifts as part of an idea for World AIDS Day and I think the idea of them is really good. So instead of buying tons of cards, that will probably end up in the ever increasing amount of rubbish the human population create, I am going to buy two School Dinner packs from Oxfam Unwrapped.

So to everyone I usually send cards too (and if I know you I would probably of sent you a card)

Tipsy Ramblings

Okay its ages since I wrote on here and again life has changed me – I thought when you reached adulthood you stopped changing that’s not the case!  So anyway time to ramble:

Well in my course I’m not sure again – I’m behind, very behind, I’ve missed too much lab and now have gaps with worksheets I should pick up – anyone got them all?  I’ve managed to get all assignments in on time which is brilliant but yeh I feel meh there is more to life than academia and I think that’s something I have finally realised.

With LGBT Officer I’ve feel invigorated the demos, the campaigns, the being involved with LGBT rights in a totally new and exciting way has really got me going again – I think if I stayed on as pride committee again I would of given in, new challenges always bring the best out in me.

Life!  Well still no boyfriend, still not sure on where me and ex are or going – but yer men are crap – they can be great friends but life companions I’m not sure … will come back to this later.

Now to the present!

The Carol Service

Well along time ago I said no to religion a mix between my granddads funeral and it being unfair he was taken away, to fundamentalist views some people had at the time.  I always state that above all I believe in something I don’t know what, but it was surprising how easily I fell back into believing and it did make me happy.  The sermon annoyed me, but that’s just because I was always a very liberal christen and there was a lot of contradiction in what he said.  But the music and carols were fab.

Maybe its time for me to look at my roots again.  I never believed I could ever be happy being gay / bi and still believing in religion, I always thought it was one or the other – will have too look out the LGBT Christian group info again and get in touch – even if its just to get some info. 

RAG Snowball Formal two words:

FUCKING BRILLIANT

Sarah and Jade looked dam sexy in their dresses and it was greate spending time with Dewi dancing again - don't get to do that often.  Bec danced flirty with me again which is always kewl and I think I teased Dean a bit much again - though I think he's realised I only tease because hes my friend.

I’m not even sure any other event even last Reload is going to change my mind on that.  I’m sitting here in my suit undone, after dancing like a fool, smiling, being merry and enjoying what Christmas is all about spending time with your friends.  The only thing I was missing was the cute guy for the slow dances to be flirty with.

Continuum

For three years now I’ve labelled myself as gay now I’m wondering if labels are even needed.  After going to a workshop on bisexuality I have been looking at myself as a person.  There are still girls that I go wow to, just the same as guys, I just seem to have found a label and developed myself around it.

I remember when I first came to University, I believed in the bi continuum (if your unsure – it means everyone is on a sliding scale between gay and heterosexual and during your life you can slide up and down it).  Then I became immersed into being Male Co-ordinator for AberPride and I lost that to defining to a label.  We’ll see I think it maybe time to be young again and be curious and just see what life brings rather than deciding I’m this and that’s it.

Mmmm anyway now that I’ve bored you completely I’ll sign off!

Another fun day today, went shopping for a new Pride flag for the LGBT soc - this time I think it needs to be padlocked down so it doesn't get stolen hehe. I was a bad boy too and although I wasn't going to buy any new clothes until term started I *accidentally* spent £35 pounds in Officers Club - oh well I needed some new clothes honest.

Decided not to go jogging today - instead I'm going to do some proper muscle stretches as my upper legs are still killing - think I pushed myself slightly too hard yesterday. But it is back to jogging on Sunday - I'm determined not to let this drop off over the marina wall hehe.

New place is really good and I've settled in very well - I was going to finish off sorting today but the room is full of wet wash - oh well.

... and finally to the yes no maybe slot - I've been thinking of getting my ear done since I was 16 never plucked up the courage to do it though ... now I'm feeling more confident with myself in general it is time for a decision ... I been to get a clip on to see if it looks good so now its your turn - what does everyone think - should I get it pierced:



Sees ya

... well you all thought the next line would be I just had sex or something like that ... but no ... I managed to go out jogging again :-D little easier today though and went a bit further as well. It is actually really fun espcially when your running through the country side along the ystwyth river. Goals for tomorrow:

(1) Go jogging again
(2) Jog further
(3) Jog for longer

Right I need shower stickyness is getting too much ... anyone want to join me ;-)

Well where do I start lets think ... well over the weekend I went to Mardi Gras in Cardiff ... it was good but I think I got slightly too drunk on the friday night so didn't enjoy the saturday as much as I'd hoped. Though in saying that it was good and I got to see lots of people who I have not seen in a while which is always a bonus.

I've not done much this week bar work ... went jogging earlier (first time in god knows how long) and I really didn't realise how unfit I was. Muscles have calmed down now I've streched the jog out of them and I'm feeling really happy and for once awake and not tired. I must start going jogging each day ... that is my mid year resolution (hopefully I'll keep it hehe).

Anyway I'm going to sign off now ... sees ya!